My nemesis – pizza.

Sometimes I’m not sure exactly the purpose of writing this blog. Yet really I do. It is keeping me accountable for my food issues at a time when it can be very easy to pretend things are fine just because I’m eating food I wouldn’t at home.

Which brings me back to that nemesis of pizza.

Last night I went out with an old friend. I’ve been wanting to try pizza again and this seemed a great opportunity. By “try”, I am referring to both conquering the fear of the calories and just as significant, conquering the BS challenge.

For the first challenge, I did… okay. My mind was on the calories and I did leave pieces at the end. Yet I ate and enjoyed so those are success points.

The second? Better than in the past, yet still not good. It’s the combination of cheese and carbs. The rise is slow and steady and insidious (kind of like developing an ED… hmm). I used a mix of regular and square bolus and ended up hovering at 15 for most of the night (of course with then some added correction boluses). Being away, it’s hard, b/c I really don’t want to have a stubborn low while here. That gets too scary.

It may be that pizza is something that I just have to forego. It’s hard to say that with a clear conscience of it being a diabetes health choice and not an ED choice.

Sometimes it is murky. 

Tonight’s challenge? Pasta.